People Are Pissed

That the Democrats lost control of the House. Well, when they had the majority they didn't do much with it. They punked out A LOT. We could have a public option with our healthcare. If he Dems would have had some BALLS. You can't just vote and that is that. You have to hold your government representatives accountable. That means writing letters calling their office. NOT getting on facebook and twitter and bitching. Believe it or not they respond to letters. Too often if you are lets say a Democrat and your representative is a Republican you never write them. Write them! Make them know that you exist. A lot of people in Congress are clowns who get away with MURDER. They don't have a platform they just spit out rhetoric promulgated by the party. Both sides are full of shit, they say what they have to, and they play on ignorance of the masses.

Anyway, I am tired Theraflu is kicking in righteously

I have this weird rash

On my face around my eyes. Hmmm it is messing up my swag.

I love my husband

I really really do. I am so lucky to have him. He is my best friend. I love everything about him. Even when he pisses me off I love him.

I am a lucky girl.

ooowee

So I entered a contest and my entry was a mess but I didn't it anyway. It did not come out at all like I envisioned. Oh well two tears in a bucket.... but here are some pictures the hubby took of me. Boy I am tired!

Feel Like Shit

I have a headache and terrible indigestion! Maybe I had too many cookies today. Who knows. So the first week of class is over and I am telling you this semester is going to be a bitch. I have soooooooooo much to read and most of it is fucking boring. Reading isn't the hard part, being able analyze and intellectualize what I am reading is the hard part. As I have said before I am not an intellectual but history is an intellectual discipline. People think it is just telling stories about the past, if only it was that easy!

People simple answers to things and if we are honest we know that nothing is that simple..ever..I feel like I have been neglecting this place. It is quieter here. Tumblr is a bunch of noise. I was thinking about my old myspace blog..maybe I will go through there one day and post some old blogs. I am one of those people where I write but I don't tend to read it again because most of the time I find it too painful. Either I am disgusted by my silliness or I am overwhelmed by my sadness. I tend to blog, journal when I am sad about something. I should stop that because when you are gone and people read your shit they think that is all that you were.

Since I can' t sleep I might as well bitch

I follow certain people's blogs because I like what they write about or I like their style. I was following this person's blog who wrote a lot about fashion and natural hair but the shade she would throw at anyone who had 'unatural' hair was getting to be too much. Hair is hair to me. I don't care what you do with it as long as it is clean. I know some people are into hair in that way, I am not. When you die they are not going mention your fucking hair in your obituary or put it on your tombstone.

I said on Twitter that some natural hair people are the Jehovah Witnesses of hair. That is all they want to talk about. They want to take you to the big chop hall and have hair study on twists out and the evilness of shampoos with sulfur. One girl just wanted to go natural for a change, she decided to get a relaxer and baby they gave her FEVER. They literally wished for her hair to fall out! What kind of shit is that! It is not your fucking hair! If natural hair doesn't fit into her life style it has nothing to do with you!

I know that natural hair people get fever, they are probably a minority depending on where you may live but I am sorry some of you are too close to it.

I like to watch Intervention

But I like to skip the intervention part.

Sigh

I know I have been neglecting this place. I have been mostly blogging fluff on Tumblr. I do have good news! I am done with Spanish this semester. I kept an A average on my exams so I am exempt from finals. What a load off my mind! I did not have the energy to study for a whole semester worth of that shit!

Physically I have not been feeling good at all. I am not comfortable at all. I am still binging on food but not as bad. I don't know what is up with me.

Yes ma'am

I am real fucking bothered over something right now. Folks are taking liberties that I can't down with.

Self portraits

It Just Hit Me

I am not happy about my birthday because my ass is OLD. Well you know the old where you realize you don't identify with 20 somethings at all anymore and they in turn think you are ancient and behind the times. Buttttt if you die then you suddenly become young again. Yeah.. confusing and full of shit I know, before I fucking know it 40 will be here. :le sigh:

Father's Day

More and more I realize how much shit men get on this day. There is nothing but shade being thrown left and right. The men who have failed at being a father seems to have overshadowed the men who are good fathers. It’s a shame really. If your father is non existent in your life keep if freaking moving! I come from a family of women. My aunts who did marry are divorced the only constant men in my life was my grandfather and my aunt’s husband Eugene. So I have reasons to be bitter if I wanted to, all I know are sorry ass men. I don’t speak to my father, I haven’t in many years. I don’t even know where he is. Am I angry towards him? No, what is the point. Whatever choices we both have made in regards to our relationship we need to be at peace with it. The phone works both ways, no need to be pissy because we both are stubborn and we both won’t budge. I can’t be angry with him without being angry at myself. Wasted energy honey.

I also don’t ascribe to the notion that my mother was also father. My mother is my MOTHER, women can’t be fathers. Sorry,if you are really honest about it, you know its true. Since so many men have not been the fathers they should be to their children, society has subscribed to the the idea, well my single parent is both then, which makes no sense to me. These men don’t want to do right so lets replace them. It isn’t working… I was raised by a WOMAN in every sense of the word. The strength she instilled in me is that from a woman who had to go at it alone, not a woman replacing or standing in for a man! Why put all that on her?? I know people say it out of respect for what their mother has done for them, I get that, but it just doesn’t compute for me. I am the product and reflection of both my parents even if one wasn’t as involved as the other. She did not replace or stand in for him, and he could never replace and stand in for her. So to all the people with good parents SPEAK UP don’t let the sorry ass parental units of others overshadow the love you have experienced in your life. Sharing your experiences might quell some of the bitterness that is going around and heal some hurt souls out there.

Get that big piece of chicken fathers, its your day!

I love these two pieces by Kara Walker

So I Got A Tumblr

And I am not sure what the hell to do with it. What I do know is it won't contain anything personal emotional wise as the address is published on my Twitter account. I will keep the more personal things here as I don't promote this blog site at all. Besides I don't want all that Twitter rift raft over here. I am beginning to kind of hate most of the people I follow on Twitter now lol. Or maybe its my PMDD talking right.

Well anyway this is my tumblr: http://ladysugatitshoecakes.tumblr.com/

Follow me on there and I will follow back I ain't siddity like some of these social networking whores who dreams of social networking grandeur and fame, which means they want lots of followers but don't want to hear what anyone else has to say.

PMDD

PMDD is premenstrual dysphoric disorder which is a disorder where you have wild mood swings prior to the start of your period. I am not talking about extra bitchiness, I mean depression, binge eating, disinterest in relationships or life, crying, and basic all out crazy woman shit. I have never been diagnosed by a professional but I think I have this shit! I have been journaling and I notice I get very depressed, disinterested and crazy around the time of the month. I want to lock myself up in a room and cry, not talk to anyone and binge on sweets. Usually on day 2 of my period those extreme feelings go away but sometimes its the whole damn duration.

Like right now I recognize that I am feeling off, I don't want to talk to anyone and I don't feel like pretending to be happy. Earlier I went to get some Shepherd's pie and I was like DAMN IT where is all of it? And I started to feel anger. I was like my husband probably took some extra to share with his co-workers and I got mad! LOL I don't know if that is the case or not but when I caught myself in the reflection of the microwave my ass looked ready to kill! LOL I can laugh at it now but at the time I was like this is some crazy shit! I can even tell on here when I was on my period by my damn posts. When I am extra critical on myself and sad its because my period is about to start or has just barely started!

Here is some information I found online..I have all of these symptons! Oh lord... wait, can I get Ambien for this?

https://health.google.com/health/ref/Premenstrual+dysphoric+disorder

Lesbian Drama

On the Twitter...I tell you what...

There is nothing secret on the internet...and you are not slick referring to someone by their government name ESPECIALLY if you are following a person that knows who in the hell you are talking about!

Iluminati Make up Tutorial

Actually I think this is more Illuminati...

My Next Youtube Video

Will be spoofying people who think the Illuminati is real and most importantly that Beyonce, JayZ, and Rihanna are a member of it. Also its funny how people think being naked with heavy makeup makes you edgy.. They give them wayyyyyyyyyyy too much credit...

Irritating News

I got some news today when I checked the mail that has me gagging right now. I need to work something out QUICKLY.

This Tumblr is FUCKING HILARIOUS!!!

Y'all know I like ignorant ass shit this site is giving me everything!

http://yourmomisclubbin.tumblr.com

I GOT ALL A's!!

For the spring semester. I am happy! Can't believe this fall I will be graduating...lord I will have so much money to pay back.... I just caught a lil stroke.

So disgusted

Someone I use to be in the Navy with (I barely remember him) posted an update today that had me livid! I promptly deleted his ass! For the past two weeks he had been posting these foreboding updates that would prompt people to say what is going on? For which he never answers so I was like fuck it drama queen. Today he decided to tell everyone on facebook that his ex girlfriend had an abortion in Knoxville TN. Yes, I should not know any of that. He first starts out with abortion is wrong no matter the circumstances and then spills all the tea!

What got me real bothered was everything was about him not the aborted fetus! It was a bunch of women have no right...He would have done whatever to ensure the baby was all right... He will never forgive her... I could not believe that he would put such an intimate experience as a facebook status. I don't care the hurt! Folks was just like I am sorry but fuck that I am not going to apologize for a woman's right to choose. Some men can't stand the fact that women now have that choice. They can no longer use pregnancy as a means to control women.

I just deleted his ass because I don't want to be associated with people who would post such things....

This About Sums it UP

Silly Ho: I'm so lonely

There is this person I use to be good friends with back in the day. I recently found her again on facebook and I am a bit amazed by her. First of all I didn't realize she was so damn ghetto! So very tacky. Her hair... I am just waiting for her to show up on hotghettomess.com but that isn't what has me gagging. Its her neediness. Although I share some personal things on this site and on other blog sites I have had. I have never ever ever whined in public about not having a man! That is just something you don't do. No one wears desperation well!

This particularly person is very depressed over being single..she can't be no more than 32 or 33. She meets men and quickly things seem to go sour. And why do I know this??? She puts this shit all on facebook. She is coming off mad desperate. This week really killed me because she wrote a note talking about she has spent alot of time wondering why she is single and why a man doesn't want to marry her. She then goes on to say that it is because God is getting her ready for the right man. Ok then girl. Now that had to be 2 days ago, today she posted a nasty note talking about fucking for 3 1/2 hours! At least that is what it sounded like. I asked her what was the post about and she said nothing. Again ok then girl.

She needs to write this shit down in a journal and keep her whining to herself..no wonder white folks are always on the news talking about single black women. Its because their asses is out in public whining! Even on twitter not a day goes by that someone isn't saying black men ain't shit, I wish I had a man..yadda yadda yadda. I never ever was like that, maybe it is because I am an only child so I had to learn to entertain myself. Or maybe it's because I am lazy. It takes a lot of work to be in a relationship..I rather be alone if I wasn't with my husband. I never wrapped my value up in what a man thought of me. Fuck men they are stupid for the most part. They are beholden to their dick and can't think straight. And they have to work super hard to get someone to fuck them, well a quality fuck. I can't. I am glad I am a woman vulnerabilities and all.

If this blog can be a PSA it would be just shut the fuck up about not having a man we don't care and we don't want to hear it. Also take that fucked up looking kool aid weave out your head!

Turned In Last Final Today

I am done! Today I fell off my diet I wanted a DRINK! Me and the hubby went to our Mexican spot and I had 4 margaritas! Yessssssss and they were GOOD. I also had chicken and beef fajitas with charro beans. I also had some cake! I know my husband is going to say something to me about eating the cake but fuck it I deserved it. Now that I am off until June 1 I will be exercising more. After living in this house for 5 years I recently found out we have access to a tennis court so the hubby and I will be taking advantage of that.

Hair:

Lawd my hair is nappy right now! I have been lazy so I have kind of let my hair go. I have been wearing wigs but it is getting too hot for that so me and the legacy of Madame C.J. Walker are about to get reacquainted. The front of my hair is fairly straight but the back is nappy like Pam. I don't mind naps what I don't like is two hair textures.

Youtube:

My M.I.A video on Born Free has like 18K views..I don't like that... I keep making it private because I am tired of people leaving comments. I wish I could stop comments but let people see what people have already said. A lot of it is a bunch of fuckery but then that is youtube. I am not the best with grammar but damn some people had me scratching my head like WHAT??? Incomplete sentences, terrible spelling, irrational arguing. I haven't read half the comments. One douche said he was disappointed in my cursing, black women have lost their femininity that bitch can eat a hot bowl of dicks.. I could care less what a man thinks about femininity.

Today was a BITCH

I was mad enough to kill. A boot was put on my car! A girl who was doing a good deed offered me her parking ticket at school, so I used it as I had on heels and the parking was closer. I was there to be be inducted into the honors society and I knew it would be a quick ceremony. I swear as soon as I walked away, MISTER FUCKING FREEMAN put a boot on my car. I had to pay $112. 25 to get that shit off my car. The bitch ass fucker couldn't even look me in the FACE while he fucking me over. I felt like I was raped, I had no recourse, me not seeing the ticket was non transferable when I used it was useless. He was like I need 112.25 to take it off! I just started crying because there was nothing I could do but pay it. As I write this my chest is hot with anger. There was a moment I wish I had a stun gun because after he took the boot off I would have loved to sting him within an inch of a fucking heart attack!

Finals Next Week and I am starving

This is the time I usually get real ignorant with it. I feel I can't study without stuffing my face with something. I usually stay in one spot from hours on end, which means in front of the computer. So no kind of exercise. I am so hungry right now. I have been sticking to my diet for.... 3 weeks on Friday. I have had occasional pains for sweets and junk foods, but I just have to ignore it. As soon as my husband comes home I want to eat dinner but he doesn't he eats a late lunch so he wants to eat at 8 and 9 at night. By then I am dying. Like right now I want to sneak off and eat something just so I can be satisfied. When I got on the scale earlier it said I had lost about 10 or 9 give or take. I have to keep going. I want my damn cheek bones back!

I am kind of weirded out

That my video commentating on M.I.A's new video Born Free has gotten a lot of views. Someone actually called me a racist arrogant American nigger...I think. I could barely understand what he was saying. lol. I guess I am official on the youtube now. lol

Born Free-M.I.A

www.miauk.com

Bananas!! Brilliant!! Brutal!!

I Am Kind of Pissed Right Now

Actually more like seething with anger and I can't say why I am pissed. I am having to pretend I am OK going along with something that I don't approve of. I am even typing hard. I tell you sometimes I wonder..I really do. I am funny about certain things and I don't think I am ever gonna change in that regard.

Soundtracks of the Day

Lesbian Drama

Call me Pookie from New Jack

I haven't had any sweets or anything made from flour since Thursday. Oh! And let me not forget coffee! I have not tasted the Starbucks since Thursday too how many days has it been??? My last sweet beverage was a mocha frappacino. I am craving like a mug. This is hard but I need to do something. I was engaging in some very negative behavior regarding food and I need to stop. It is affecting everything. It is some very fat shit to be eating honey sandwiches at 2 in the morning! I was going through loafs of bread even my husband started giving me the side eye. Lord.

Actually I was binging. That is more accurate without the purging but who knows that shit might be next if I don't get it together. I was never a skinny girl always curvy but it was cute curvy this right here is something else. I would never publicly say how much I weigh because that varies based on body shape and bone structure. For instance my husband looks skinny but I have seen people that are his same height and weight and they look normal. He has a delicate bone structure. Me on the other hand I carry my weight better but it is getting out of hand. Next thing I know I will be having a booty do.

So anyway I pray I can stay away from the darksided food that is making my booty spread.

Soundtrack of the day

I Had A Terrible Dream

I am down today. The dream was Thursday but its impact is still reverberating through me. There was a message in it. I keep doing the same things over and over and expect a miraculous different out come. When you are drowning it is up to YOU to save yourself no one else has to lift a finger. Its stupid and I am way too intelligent for this kind of bullshit. Whatever I am feeling I need to shake it off when my husband gets home. I don't like to worry him.

Anyway music inspirations of the day:

Erykah Badu

Radiohead

Sad Face

My husband sent me an email with pictures of me from about 4 years ago. They immediately depressed me. I am a fat cow now. I just can't believe I have blown up like this in the past 3 years its terrible. So damn depressing but I have done it to myself. No one to blame but me.

New Avatard

I think it is kind of funky... The hubby took the picture.

Soundtrack of the Day

Little Dragon-Little Dragon
Little Dragon-Machine Dreams
Gorillaz-Plastic Beach
Bjork-Unravel
Erykah Badu-Return of the Ankh

(heavily rotated)

Played around in make up.

Was/Is feeling depressed today so I decided to play in make up. I tired to recreate a look from the We Need A Resolution video by Aaliyah. All I see is mistakes in what I did so I am whatever about it. I need to get serious about weight loss. I saw a picture my husband took of me and I looked OBESE. Its getting out of control, no actually it is out of control but that's a whole nother blog.

THIS SHIT IS HORRIBLE!!!

LOOK AT THIS HOT MESS SHIT! YES I AM GOING KANYECAPS ON THIS BULLSHIT.

THIS SHIT RIGHT HERE MAKE ME WANT TO GET HARRIET TUBMAN'S GUN!!!

THIS MESS SENT BLACK WOMEN BACK 1000 YEARS. YET FOLKS WAS MAD ABOUT BADU'S VIDEO. GIVE ME A FREAKING BREAK!

Major Lazer "Pon De Floor" from Eric Wareheim on Vimeo.

Eli Roth is a DOUCHBAG!

Ms. Eli thought it would be chivalrous to post a blog/open letter to the mother of the guy who leaked naked pictures of his skanky new girlfriend.(On Myspace of all places..I guess he figured no one would read it) He basically puts the guy's family personal information out there so that his fans can harass them. He calls the woman a bad evil mother who raised a demon basically. I would agree that the guy is fair game he threw the first novela slap but come on son the MAMA??

How in the fuck is this helping Ms. Peaches. He comes off just as immature as the boy that linked the pictures. What the fuck does his mama have to do with this?? To me that is some bitchass shit! All you are showing us is that Ms. Peaches has terrible taste in men. She apparently has a hard on for men with the mental maturity of a 12 year old. If I was the leaker guy I would be waiting outside Ms. Eli's house with a taser and a super soaker full of piss for daring to come after my mom for some shit I did.

Ms. Eli claimed the guy caused hurt to Ms. Peaches career. Bitch please! Rule #1 NEVER EVER let some dude take naked pictures of you!!! If you do roll with the consequences. She wasn't worried about her future when she got high with that boy and got buck ass naked! Come on now.

A real grown woman would have owned up to that shit and said yes I did it. It was stupid but you live and learn. Neutralize that shit. Be a woman about it. The fact of the matter is people had forgot about that ho and her ho pictures because she isn't anybody. And here he comes like a douchbag from hell bringing more attention to the matter. She is a girl from a rich family that has not done anything substantial but do some ho shit like said pictures. She don't need your so called chivalry.

Ms. Eli need to get it together he to old to play on the playground like this!

PS.
I am sorry the grammar is probably a mess but I am in a hurry I just had to get this out.

Window Seat

I still don't know what to make of this video... With so many female artists getting naked for the sake of being naked not sure if this was the time for this particular video. I don't think that is why she made it at all but still its getting lumped in with that Gaga mess and they are not even the same. She is a bit more of a sophisticated artist than that... I guess the comments I have seen about the video ruins it for me.

Seems like people are stuck on the size of her ass and everything else falls to the wayside. Although there is nothing sexual about the video at all men seem to be fixated on her ass. Men are so stupid.

Hmmm

My Friday Night

HILARIOUS!

Anybody that lives in Texas knows about Whataburger and out of the fast food burger chains Whataburger is the best. But this right here is a bit much. All this drama over a cheeseburger. The killing part is he got beat up and still didn't get his burger.

Photo Of The Day

Trying new colors

I Miss Twitter

Facebook is fucking boring as hell!!!! No kind of life in my feed.

The Stans of Gaga

Are muthafucking crazy!

While I recognize and understand the appeal of her she does not feed me nor give me life. She is just whatever to me, I think I liked her better when she knew her position. The Gaga fans they are some beasts! I think they love to exclaim how good and artsy she is because she provokes strong opinion. (Like me writing this stupid ass blog) I thought the Beyonce Stans were terrible. On the internet folks was getting wet in the pannies for the Beyonce/Gaga video collabo. And I yawned. So Telephone came out and a couple people in my youtube subscription made videos about this video so I was like let me see what the hype is about. This is suppose to be the next Thriller so her (coven of misfits says) Anyways... It was straight booty.

While I understand cult films hey I am miss blacxpoltation. But in order for it to come off artistically and be relevant in a video the song has to relate in some way to the visuals you are trying to bring to the table. I get wacky. I am wacky but that shit was booty. How can you have murder and mayhem in a video but your song is a pop song talking about somebody blowing up your phone while you in the club? What girl?? I can't. Some would say that is the genius of it and I would still say STFU. Go watch Ms. Bjork honey she gets it. They misused the honey bun and pussy wagon! How dare they! I have become numb to women dancing in pannies and heels so I was whatever about that. You just telling me that is all you got for right now. Do you honey. You seen one bitch shake it you have seen them all.

I can't believe the director Jonas Ackerlund did this wack ass shit. Normally he is very on it with disturbing presentations of women in a non-traditional aggressive ways. (See Smack My Bitch Up) In regards to Telephone he failed. Stans don't see this though everything is 'hating' or you are being 'old-fashioned' chile please. I really don't give a damn. If it don't fit you must acquit. The video could of been hot with the proper song. It wasn't artsy what she did it was cheap. Payless shoes cheap. It wasn't epic and the only people that liked it were the people who really dig her. She did not pick up any new people with that mess. That is why it will never be a Thriller. None of these women who are popular now will ever touch what Michael had so whomever said Telephone was the new Thriller need to get their ass kicked. It was late honey and I am sticking to that.

Not Getting It Together

Procrastination is going to ruin me.

Love my new glass

Me and Simba Again

Photo of The Day

My husband took this of me in the cat. I like it because most of my face is hidden. I have fat face now.

If I Become a Mother

Please don't let me be one of those mom's that flood Facebook/Twitter and the next internet social site with pictures of my children. They do too much for me! Nobody cares about your seed like that but you and family.If you have another adult examining your children like THAT you need to give them the pedophile side eye!

I know this sounds bitchy but I just have to say it no shade.....well maybe a little..

School Has Me Stressed!

I am not retaining and comprehending which is crucial to my field of study.

Sad. I want to eat fat shit.

This video on my youtube channel

Has the most views. I thought my story video was funnier.

Picture of the day

I made him mad.

Is This Meant To Be Funny

Because I laughed. Its like Bad but gayer.

GOT DAMN IT.

I got a fucking 74 on a test! The class average for this exam was 72! Why did I take this fucking man again??? I know why! Because I am fucking retarded and should have learned my lesson!

Real Talk

I have like no sex drive at all. And its not my husband because the thought of sleeping with another man makes my vagina gag. Isn't this shit suppose to happen when you 60? Ugh.

I wish I was a freak

Lenten

I am on a fast today..I have a headache.
I gave up Twitter..
now back to studying.

No words... in 2010