Tuesday, April 27, 2010

I am kind of weirded out

That my video commentating on M.I.A's new video Born Free has gotten a lot of views. Someone actually called me a racist arrogant American nigger...I think. I could barely understand what he was saying. lol. I guess I am official on the youtube now. lol

Born Free-M.I.A


Bananas!! Brilliant!! Brutal!!

Sunday, April 25, 2010

I Am Kind of Pissed Right Now

Actually more like seething with anger and I can't say why I am pissed. I am having to pretend I am OK going along with something that I don't approve of. I am even typing hard. I tell you sometimes I wonder..I really do. I am funny about certain things and I don't think I am ever gonna change in that regard.

Friday, April 23, 2010

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Call me Pookie from New Jack

I haven't had any sweets or anything made from flour since Thursday. Oh! And let me not forget coffee! I have not tasted the Starbucks since Thursday too how many days has it been??? My last sweet beverage was a mocha frappacino. I am craving like a mug. This is hard but I need to do something. I was engaging in some very negative behavior regarding food and I need to stop. It is affecting everything. It is some very fat shit to be eating honey sandwiches at 2 in the morning! I was going through loafs of bread even my husband started giving me the side eye. Lord.

Actually I was binging. That is more accurate without the purging but who knows that shit might be next if I don't get it together. I was never a skinny girl always curvy but it was cute curvy this right here is something else. I would never publicly say how much I weigh because that varies based on body shape and bone structure. For instance my husband looks skinny but I have seen people that are his same height and weight and they look normal. He has a delicate bone structure. Me on the other hand I carry my weight better but it is getting out of hand. Next thing I know I will be having a booty do.

So anyway I pray I can stay away from the darksided food that is making my booty spread.

Soundtrack of the day

Friday, April 16, 2010

I Had A Terrible Dream

I am down today. The dream was Thursday but its impact is still reverberating through me. There was a message in it. I keep doing the same things over and over and expect a miraculous different out come. When you are drowning it is up to YOU to save yourself no one else has to lift a finger. Its stupid and I am way too intelligent for this kind of bullshit. Whatever I am feeling I need to shake it off when my husband gets home. I don't like to worry him.

Anyway music inspirations of the day:

Erykah Badu


Thursday, April 15, 2010

Sad Face

My husband sent me an email with pictures of me from about 4 years ago. They immediately depressed me. I am a fat cow now. I just can't believe I have blown up like this in the past 3 years its terrible. So damn depressing but I have done it to myself. No one to blame but me.

Monday, April 12, 2010

New Avatard

I think it is kind of funky... The hubby took the picture.

Soundtrack of the Day

Little Dragon-Little Dragon
Little Dragon-Machine Dreams
Gorillaz-Plastic Beach
Erykah Badu-Return of the Ankh

(heavily rotated)

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Played around in make up.

Was/Is feeling depressed today so I decided to play in make up. I tired to recreate a look from the We Need A Resolution video by Aaliyah. All I see is mistakes in what I did so I am whatever about it. I need to get serious about weight loss. I saw a picture my husband took of me and I looked OBESE. Its getting out of control, no actually it is out of control but that's a whole nother blog.

Thursday, April 8, 2010





Major Lazer "Pon De Floor" from Eric Wareheim on Vimeo.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Eli Roth is a DOUCHBAG!

Ms. Eli thought it would be chivalrous to post a blog/open letter to the mother of the guy who leaked naked pictures of his skanky new girlfriend.(On Myspace of all places..I guess he figured no one would read it) He basically puts the guy's family personal information out there so that his fans can harass them. He calls the woman a bad evil mother who raised a demon basically. I would agree that the guy is fair game he threw the first novela slap but come on son the MAMA??

How in the fuck is this helping Ms. Peaches. He comes off just as immature as the boy that linked the pictures. What the fuck does his mama have to do with this?? To me that is some bitchass shit! All you are showing us is that Ms. Peaches has terrible taste in men. She apparently has a hard on for men with the mental maturity of a 12 year old. If I was the leaker guy I would be waiting outside Ms. Eli's house with a taser and a super soaker full of piss for daring to come after my mom for some shit I did.

Ms. Eli claimed the guy caused hurt to Ms. Peaches career. Bitch please! Rule #1 NEVER EVER let some dude take naked pictures of you!!! If you do roll with the consequences. She wasn't worried about her future when she got high with that boy and got buck ass naked! Come on now.

A real grown woman would have owned up to that shit and said yes I did it. It was stupid but you live and learn. Neutralize that shit. Be a woman about it. The fact of the matter is people had forgot about that ho and her ho pictures because she isn't anybody. And here he comes like a douchbag from hell bringing more attention to the matter. She is a girl from a rich family that has not done anything substantial but do some ho shit like said pictures. She don't need your so called chivalry.

Ms. Eli need to get it together he to old to play on the playground like this!

I am sorry the grammar is probably a mess but I am in a hurry I just had to get this out.