Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Master Cleanse

I did that shit for 10 days. I have never fantasized about food like I did those 10 days. I don't know how in the hell people could it for 20 or 40 days. I lost ten pounds that I probably will gain back. I am trying to cut my calories I just need to do the working out part. I can not believe how chunky my black ass got. I suppose I have eating sadness. I feel like such a loser. I made a pact with my friend for us to lose 10 lbs by our bday June 28. I would feel so much better about myself. Shit maybe I should just go sit down somewhere and have some babies.

I'm so stressed

I have been looking for work since January. This year has just sucked but I hate to say that out loud as something worst might happen. I am starting to get student loan payment requests and it makes me break out in a sweat. I owe so much money! Between the loans I had left over from my associates and completing my bachelors. I need 2 damn jobs! I have only had about 4 sit down interviews and all were disappointing. I am trying not to get so sad about it.

I want to flee the country and never come back...