Thursday, April 25, 2013

I know I haven't posted in a while

A while might be understating it. So let me catch you up. I am pregnant and my baby is due in less than a month. It has been a rough pregnancy. I broke my ankle in my 7th month. I gained a lot of weight. Cried about it. I cry about everything actually.  I have been off from work since. I am okay with that. I hate that fucking job and those insane people. I don't know what I am going to do after I have the baby. I won't have any FMLA time left. It sucks. The thought of putting my child in day care is so upsetting. I suppose they could fire me if I don't return. I would be okay with that, if I can get unemployment.

I am having a girl. I am ready for her to come out. I want my body back to myself. Pregnancy is not for me. I am not made for birthing babies.

That is about it.